1.17.2014

Gusto Kong Umiyak Pero Ayoko Din

Eto yung mga panahong kahit anong ngiti ko sa labas, sa loob ko gusto kong umiyak, magpakalugmok sa isang kanto, at manahimik.

Pangit na pakiramdam pero eto ang nararamdaman ko sa ngayon.

Hindi ko alam kung dahil ba to sa PMS kaya nagkanda-letse-letse ang hormones ko o sadyang di lang para sa akin ang araw na ito.

Masakit ang ulo ko kahapon. Ngayon, masakit ang puson at namumula ang mata dahil sa biglaang pag-iyak kanina. Agad kong itinigil kaya andaming kuskos sa mata at ilong ko.

Pero gusto ko pa ring umiyak. At di ko alam ang tunay na dahilan.

Siguro eto ang mga dahilan pero di ako tiyak:

> Gusto kong umiyak dahil nag-away kami ng kuya ko na isinisisi sa akin ang lahat; kesyo madamot daw ako pag sa pamilya na di naman [eto na naman ang luha ko]

> Gusto kong umiyak dahil sa pang-aasar na nakuha ko sa mga ka-team ko sa trabaho. Oo alam kong biro pero dahil magulo ang hormones ko tila nagbabadyang mag-landfall ang mga luha ko sa pisngi ko. Kanina ko pa talaga sinusubukang di umiyak dahil onti na lang babagsak na sila

> Gusto kong umiyak dahil sa kadahilanang di ko mawari. Wala lang. Parang pag umiyak ako, lahat ng sama na nakuha ko sa araw na to eh bigla na lang mawawala.

Magulo, weird, at walang kwenta man ito pero sinasabi ko sa iyo [kung me nagbabasa man nito] na ito ang saloobin ko sa mga oras at panahon na ito. Di kita pinipilit na maki-simpatya o sumalungat o umayon sa akin. Inilabas ko lang ang sama ng pakiramdam ko dahil ayokong biglang umiyak dito sa kinauupuan ko habang kunwari nagtatrabaho pero ang totoo ay ginagawa ang latha na ito [lagot ako sa TL ko pag nalamang di ako gumagawa].

1.13.2014

This Is Not Your Typical Drop Box

I watched this video about a certain drop box over the internet and it seriously made me cry.

This is not the typical drop box that you know or ever heard of.

Then a lot of questions sprouted in my head...

Why create children when you can't keep them?

Why do you have to hurt them when you're the one at fault?

Why don't you think of the child's welfare?

Why do you have to abandon your child?

.......

The babies are being left in this container box the Pastor and the people from the orphanage did. They call it 'The Drop Box' due to the fact that babies are being treated like letters in the post offices.

I am one damn lucky child to have my parents with me throughout these years. I do not only pity these children, I am angry to their parents. The pastor is right, this does not only happen to Seoul. This is happening elsewhere too! Even here in The Philippines it's one of the social problems the government is dealing and is until now remains unsolved.

Before I get emotional once again, let me share to you the video that made my Monday morning a bit sad yet real.

1.06.2014

Angelie The Optimistic Oddball and The Letter from HR

Warning: This is a Work-related rant so You have the option to read this one or not.

I have been issued a letter from HR due to the excessive tardiness that I have incurred in the past months. I was given a chance to defend myself but I didn't do it.

Why would I tell them that I only incurred minutes of tardiness and not hours? Why should I tell them that it's due to the heavy traffic that I always encounter in going to the office even thou I always leave my place 2 hours before the office hours?

I do not want to make excuses as my Operations Manager had done to me while explaining my part. He kept telling me that I should adjust my body clock [which I am doing even thou it's hard], that I should transfer somewhere near the office [Hell no! As if he will pay for the rent], that I should buy a car [I didn't go for the last option, why should I go for this one too?].

I kept my silence because I know that I have faults in those one-minute-two-minutes tardiness. I should have not taken this route, I should not have walked this way, I should not have done this job late at night so that I could sleep earlier and wake up earlier too.

I kept my silence. Until now.

Upon reading the letter, it says that if once happened again, chances are I might be terminated. Wow, just due to tardiness one can lose her job. Great, just great.

My heart says 'I want to go to the nearest rest room and cry in one of the cubicles there'. Just letting it all out. But at the back of my mind I keep telling to myself this: that everything will be just fine and that I should perform better so that they will not let me go.

Just as what I have posted in my FB profile minutes ago, I am really such an optimistic oddball. Being able to enjoy the puddle while some are pushing me down in the mud is a rare characteristic. And I don't know if I should be happy with it or not. Hahaha

Oh well, whatever they throw at me I will definitely be able to catch it, if not doge it. Unless they start throwing me animal poops.

1.04.2014

Toy Photography Anyone?

I'm not really a photographer. I admit that I'm such a noob when it comes to right gadgets and gears and the technicalities the world of Photography brings.

But I do love shooting objects and people. I love capturing images of various sorts.

I am not a Photographer. I am a Photo Enthusiast.

Yep, that's the word I 'coined' way back in highschool since I love taking pictures of various people and events. Even self-shots I do them way back the word 'selfie' became a hit.

 I love portrait and landscape shots of nature and still objects. They're way easier than handling shots of people since I do not process or manipulate my shots.

Recently, I've been trying to get back to photography as I was way back then.

I was trying to learn to shoot nicely again.

And yesterday and today, I had the perfect models. my newly-bought toys from a Japan Surplus shop.

Interesting because they're somewhat related to my otaku world since I am recently starting to build up my otaku shrine.

As I tell you, I am no professional, I am just an enthusiast, a hobbyist. So please do go easy to me. Oke?

Here are my shots taken yesterday and today:







For more updates on this hobby of mine, you may visit my Facebook Page and click Albums under the Photos tab. I'll be uploading them there so stay tuned. ^_^

12.31.2013

My 2013 in Summary

Oke,  I felt so much better after my last blog post and the distraction on the web worked too.
Let me present in the blog my year in words [since I haven't posted much of them in the recent months].

Beware: It is one lengthy post. I'll try as much as possible to summarize the events per month so please do stick till the end :D

So here's what happened in 2013:

January
Back after 13 Years
Oke~, aside from it was the start of the new year, I had lots of fun with my officemates. We had lots of bonding moments together. One of the highlights of my January is the trip to Iloilo, my good officemate Don's hometown.

We went there in time for the Dinagyang Festival 2013. On 01.26.13, we arrived in Iloilo then stayed for Guimaras for a day to enjoy the beach there. It was not my first time to go there since I was part of my school's delegation to the 2nd Paulinian Summer Leadership Seminar held in SPUI back in 2000.

On 01.27.13, we went back to Downtown Iloilo to witness the festival itself. Here's some of the vids that I took in line with the event:





Thou I didn't able to go with my officemates to Boracay as I had to leave that night for Manila [it was, after all, my Mom's birthday], I had so much fun. It turned out that this was just the beginning of the many bondings that our team will be having for this year.


February
The highlight of this month really was my birthday but since I do nothing about it [just some simple celebration], the other occasions happened during this month became the highlight.

Just some of the Rushers Present
One of them is the Book Launch and First [of many] Book Signing of the Book Two [hence, #TeamBookTwo] my favorite Morning Radio Show, The Morning Rush. It happened days prior my birthday in Robinson's Galleria. I was somewhat late for the event since I came from Bulacan. What made this book so special to me that time was that I have two entries of of hundred and thousands of Rushers [the listeners] who sent theirs worldwide [yep, we have a cult over here haha]. It was good to see my fellow rushers towhich I am badly missing right now; I haven't been able to attend any EBs recently. (╯︵╰,)

Next up was the suddent [shotgun] wedding of my cousin Badeth in Paniqui, Tarlac which coincided with the 18th Hot Air Balloon Festival in Clark Air Base in Pampanga. I was able to attend both but I only got to stay on the latter event for just an hour or so.

Here's a photo of me with the Bride:


She was, I think, 3 years younger than me but she was the first one [bet the two of us] to marry hahaha. Also, I serve as her godparent [towhich I am still puzzled till now].

I did serve as the Maid-of-Honor of the wedding [since I was still single and too young to be part of the Sponsors (((( ;°Д°))))]. Look at how beautiful I was. Hahaha :P


Here's a video of my quick trip to the Hot Air Balloon Festival:




March
For this month, the highlight was my first Cosplay Group Photoshoot that I had with my group, Cosplay Le Familia. It was also my first time to attend a photoshoot outside conventions. I was nervous at first but then after some clicks and some warm-ups, I got confident with them.

This is the Family that I love hanging-out every otaku conventions and events
Also this month, The Cosplay Goddess of the Philippines, Alodia Gosiengfiao, graced The Morning Rush with my tweet paving the way. My rusher friend Daniel and I was also included in the Epic Pic the Kikay Barkada had. Here's the photo:

We're going moe and kawaii yet Chico stays kowaii hahaha


April
This month, various events happened. There was The RX Summer Stick-on [happened just outside my office here in Eastwood], Ozine Fest [thou I didn't stay too long], then my office Summer Party, then also another cosplay group photoshoot happened in Sta. Rosa, Laguna. Let me share to you some pics from there events:

The Monster Van as seen from my office

Cool Booth Set-up in Ozine Fest

Some of the pics in IBM Mobility Neon Nite [I'm the one with the wig on]

The Epic Cosplayers and Photographers of Cosplay Le Familia


May
Nothing much happened during May, aside from the Birthday Party for DJ Andre of RX and the One Piece Movie Z showing in SM Cinemas.
The Weeners, listeners of the [now defunct] RX Afterhours

Andre with my Rillakuma gift

movie date with fellow Rusher and otaku, Ron


June
This month's highlight is my First Anniversary as a Cosplayer. I already posted about it sometime this year so let me just share to you some of my pics during that event. (´∀`)♡

Credits to Raymond Sison

Credits to Chuck and Christian [again and again]


July
This month's highlight was that of my Okaasan's hospitalization. Only a few knew about this [not even our relatives knew about it] since we want my Mom to avoid unnecessary stress. She had Hysterectomy, after finding out the real reason of her bleeding for months. No pics will be shared here since it was a private affair. Hope you understand.


August
During this month, I got sick, really really sick, for the first time due to overworking, overfatigue, and stress at work. I thought I'll get hospitalized too, if my temperature didn't go down on the third day.

Also, another highlight was the Fantasy Quest 3 held annually in Fernwoods Garden. It was my second time attending FQ but what made it more special was the people I was with: my CLF. I had a chance to wear a full furisode kimono thanks to Kuya Archie. (∩_∩) We even stayed in one of the member's place after the event so we had a house party!






September
What made my September one of my busiest months was the fact that I had to go to the province in So. Leyte with my Otousan then had to return to Manila after just spending some hours there at the same time attend a convention since I had to meet some people there.

Here are some pics from that tiring yet fulfilling trip:

I'm very much weak to any body form of water

Doing the #Shundere pose hehehe


October
Highlight of this month was the Cosmania 2013 wherein we got to do a first group cos [by the form of Sket Dance] and got to meet and greet Reika. Also, met some cosplayers which in turn became my new friends.

Reika and [the close-eyed] I

Group Cos with CLF

Poor Sket Dance, being bullied by The Student Council

My Cosplay for Cosmania 2013 Day 2
This month also left a mark to me due to the sudden demise of one of my Aunts from Okaasan's side, which was so close to me. Tita Flor, I'm missing you so much. We all miss you.


November
This was the most-awaited month of the year due to two things: First, it was the 10th Anniversary Dance Concert of Mapua Makati DanceCom, the dance group that I belong to back in college; second it was the trip that my team and Apple's team had come up. We booked a flight to Cagayan de Oro during our Thanksgiving holidays [since we're all in US Account so we follow their holidays]. Guess what, we all enjoyed the trip so much! So much that we wanted to set another trip with the teams involved! We tried the White River Rafting and the Ziplines in CDO and Bukidnon respectively.

Here's some of the pics and vids that we had during our trip:









December
Well, nothing much happened during this month, except for the endless parties and get-together that we had, left-and-right.

And oh, I attended the Christmas Toycon and the Ozine Year-ender Con and had fun with some old friends, met new ones, and err, just basically had fun.

Some pics with some people during this month:












☆*:.。. o(≧▽≦)o .。.:*☆

My 2013 is indeed a roller coaster ride, with full of ups and downs. Four hours and 45 minutes to go, I'll be saying goodbye to the year that was.

I just want to extend my gratitude to the people that I got to be with for the past 365 days, be it everyday, during otaku-related events only, be it once a month or just once this year. You just made my 2013 a colorful one and I hope you won't get tired of this girl, err, lady, err, whatever you thinks of me! Hahaha

Let me end this post by a simple prayer:

Lord, I thank you for the wonderful life that you have given me

You've given me a good family thou there are some conflicts at times
You've given me wonderful friends from different walks and paths of life
You've given me a good shelter to live on
You've given me something to earn a living
You've given me countless blessings that I myself cannot fathom anymore

I thank you for the endless opportunities
For the never-ending travels and tours that you allow me to be in
For the hundred todays and thousand tomorrows

Lord, I ask you to guide my family and friends
To teach them hope and faith
Tell them to forgive one another as we have forgiven them
Tell them to let go of the past to be able to embrace today
and to welcome tomorrow

This we ask, through Jesus Christ, Our Lord. Amen.


☆*・゜゚・*\(^O^)/*・゜゚・*☆HAPPY NEW YEAR MINNA! ☆*・゜゚・*\(^O^)/*・゜゚・*☆

明けましておめでとうございます。


The Last Post for 2013 [Or So I Assume]

Eight hours and 15 minutes to go before we say goodbye to 2013 and welcome the year that is 2014.

But somewhere inside me I'm not happy.

I'm not in the festive mood.

And I don't know why.

Maybe because I'm at work right now and not at home, unlike the previous years?

Maybe because I got lots of things to do yet I haven't started anything?

Maybe because... ugh. I'm just making excuses.

Outside of my office there'll be a New Year Countdown that will happen tonight yet I won't be able to even have a glimpse of it since after staying in the office I'll be flying away to Bulacan. I have to ride the bus before it gets too dark.

And before the firecracker-happy people starts their much-awaited moment.

Oh well, I should start looking for myself again before I welcome the new year with a gloomy face.

11.25.2013

I Really Should Get Back to Blogging ASAP!

As I type this words I am headbanging along to the music the online J-Pop streaming site named Armitage's Dimension is currently playing [The song is Reireireireireireireireimamamamamamamama from Maximum The Hormone. Kinda long title, eh?  (゜▽゜;)].

I was trying to gather my thoughts as to what to type in. Honestly, I just rode a roller coaster with the sudden shift of my moods from morning till now. This morning I was like ready to challenge someone to a fight, then come lunchtime I got focused on my "work" then now I'm trying to blog. Maybe I could give some credits to my monthly visitor. ( -。-)

I am lost in my own train of thoughts. I really don't know what to blog and where to start. Maybe because I got lots of pending posts that I haven't started typing yet, be it my travels since last year [yes, I haven't blogged about my HK/Macau trip wholly until now], or some other activities that I have [cosplay, dance concert, work, et al.]. I just don't have the leisure to do them all! ヘ(;´Д`ヘ)

Or am I just making excuses? Maybe, maybe not. Maybe because it's easier to post in my FB profile and page than post them here? I don't know.

But I really do have to go back to posting my adventures here, especially that in two days time I'll be flying in to Cagayan de Oro with my office mates. I must finish blogging them before I leave.

How I wish the drive to blog would come and possess me. Maybe tonight. Maybe tomorrow...