Just One Simple Work-Related Rant

This post is a work-related rant so it's up to you to read it or not. I won't give in too much information as for the specific process and/or the people concerned as this will be a downgrade in my 'office grade', oke~?

I work for a big BPO company. If you're following me on my Facebook profile you definitely know what company I am in. And if you're following me on my Twitter account you'll get a hint of what process I am handling [or handled before].

Recently, my team was forced to merge with the other account's team of the same nature. I am in NA Account and was previously in Night shift. To be merged to the AP Account means that we have to come in the office during daytime instead of night and the shift allowance will be pulled out from our salaries.

Aside from those, we've encountered so many other changes that it seems we have a new mandated transformation every week! This was all promulgated by our Manager and some of them are not comfortable to us anymore.

It's as if they're holding us already by the neck, purposely not letting us go for us to be controlled totally, which is not good in any sense.

As I type these words I'm on the look-out to see if that guy [yes, it's a he] is lurking around and looks if we're working or not. I'm currently working, at the same time thinking the statements that I should be typing in. Multi-tasking at its finest!

To be honest, I'm really waiting for that special thing that's why I'm hanging onto my job tightly. Also, I have my monthly dues to pay so having no job right now is a no-no for me. But having this kind of management nowadays really sucks bigtime!

I need more reasons aside from my current ones to work harder, perform better, and stay longer in here. Negative factors around this office is starting to pile up in front of me and I don't think I have the capacity to shove them over now.

So far, I can still stay put and fight this battle silently, doing the daily jobs that I have in my own way without their guidance or oversee. I just don't want to feel that one day I'll be waving the white flag and say 'I quit!' to them. I still have faith that everything will be alright soon.

I just hope the management will try to open up their ears and minds to our please. If not, there's a thing called escalation. ;)

Into The Cosplay World

Checking my posts here on blogspot makes me realize one thing: I haven't posted anything about me entering a new and creative world since last year!

Yes, I have started this new venture to the cosplay world last year. That was June 16, 2012 to be exact. But prior to my cosplay debut, I always attend cosplay events. Well, it might not be as always as now, but I do attend those that irks my interests.

My First Cosplay. And yes, I had also my first cosplay
catwalk during Toycon 2012

When I first tried attending an event in full cosplay [Megurine Luka geisha cosplay], I can say that I really am a newbie, compared with the more experienced ones that I was with that day.
I had a hard time putting on the make-up since I am not used to do it. I was somewhat conscious with my costume, wig, and poses all the time! I thought only few will recognize who I was cosplaying. Thank God that people appreciated it. Some even had taken a picture of me. I just don't know if they posted it. But I grabbed some. Hehe~

Months after, I attended a cosplay ball event. Of course, I went in a full cosplay, in red gown, depicting Madame Red from Kuroshitsuji, thou my version is somewhat different with the original one. But that's a different story.

Thou I did skip some events, as much as I could, I did go to the major cosplay conventions in town. There's Best of Anime, Cosmania, and some other else. Eventually, I met fellow cosplayers [who are much more experienced that I am] and welcomed me to their 'family' which became mine too.

My First Cosplay Shoot with CLF

Joining Cosplay Le Familia paved my way of attending cosplay shoots organized by the cosplayers and photographers themselves. I was shy at first but then after some clicks and shots, I became at ease with the concept.

I'm enjoying every minute that I am cosplaying. It's as if I'm not the usual me who's always working stressing out. It's seems that the character that I was portraying possessed me for awhile to properly convey her. And I hope I still get to do it more, even though I'm encountering financial problems with it.

The next time I attend an event in a full cosplay on, I will blog it right away. I just have been very much busy with work that I tend to forget to update everyone about my activities.

Join the 30-Day Abs-and-Core Challenge

Hi guys!

I know I've been absent again for long. Well, not really long. But yes, I'm back!

credits to owner

And as for my comeback, I'll be joining in a fitness challenge recommended by my good friend Lara Novales, blogger of Thinspirational Journey.

The goal is to follow routines of exercises she has made for 30 days. The intensity is pretty much easy that even noobs can do it on their own!

Since I've been having troubles with my abdomen area after my hiatus on dancing, this is the perfect time to
try this one out. Also, the timing is perfect as I am setting my mind to cosplay some well-fit characters soon.

I will keep you posted probably on a weekly basis as to my progress on this challenge. I just have to remind myself to jot down some notes that I'll be posting up here.

For the list of routines to be done, you may refer to the post on Lara's blog here or you may ask her on her Facebook page for more details.

For the proper execution of the exercises, you may first seek help from Google-sensei or Youtube-sensei to avoid casualties. Also, remember to stretch a little.

Let's aim for a leaner body and we should start now!

I Am In A Quarter Life Crisis And I Am Not Gonna Conceal It Anymore

Since I was on-leave at work due to excessive OTs and stressed brought by my work and what else, I decided to somewhat surf the net and make myself busy, even for awhile.

Basically, I got nothing to do but to rest.

But the more I realize I am alone in this house the more I feel sad, to which I am afraid will lead to depression if I haven't opened my TP and began surfing online. Thank you for technology!

I stumbled upon 25 Pictures That Will Make You Believe in True Love [see it here] that was on my Facebook timeline then saw another set of pictures before finally seeing this incredible post that summed up all the feelings that I had these recent months.

"Are You Having A Quarter Life Crisis?", so says the post. Hesitant as I may be, I decided to click on the link, provided that it's not some phishing site [I have to make sure of that first] then it brought me to a video post. I played it, waited for it to load, and finished it. I even replayed it to see that I understood what the video is trying to tell me.

Then I stopped what I was doing.

And there was an Eureka moment.

That was just moments ago.

It made me realized that indeed I was in the middle of a crisis.

My friends tweeted me about it, saying that I am in a midlife crisis or some sort. I disagreed to them, saying that I am just questioning myself about my life, my path, and my what-ifs and what-nots. Yeah, they all seemed to be excuses I made because I really do not grasp the fact that I am having a crisis.

Not until now.

The video opened my eyes, as if it was really talking to me, as if it knows me personally and knows what I am going through right now.

Its end note? Relax. Take a deep breathe. Everything's gonna be fine.

And I did.

Sure it didn't give any concrete solutions to what I am going through. Sure it did't give out any nicer  or better advice [or more appropriate, if you know what I mean], but having it say those encouraging words, it made me turn around.

Somehow, my perspective changed.

And I found myself writing about this here in my blog.

Yes, I now admit. I do have a crisis that I was hiding for so long that it does want to burst out from me already. I even blogged about it indirectly in my previous posts but only now do I say that I am in the middle of the crossroad to which I do not know where to go.

Letting it go out here won't change anything, I know. But what matters the most is that I am not concealing it anymore to avoid any inner complications. Maybe because I am more attracted to get sick because I am sick from inside and I do not even acknowledge it.

To end this post for now, I'm embedding the video that made me awake to this crisis. And yes, I'm sharing it to all to help, since I'm not alone in this boat.

Lost and Lonely

I find myself typing words that I commonly share to others personally, either via SNS or thru phone calls and messages.

Due to rapid changes in my life recently and never-ending activities that make me dead tired, I wasn't able to update this one channel I have. And now, I see myself alone.

Don't get me wrong. I am literally not alone. It's the emptiness within me that makes me feel such. I've already expressed this a number of times to a handful of friends that I could confide to. They gave me various responses to this dilemma that I have. Yes, I tried them; they made me feel ok, but only for a short time.

If only there was an available Lactulose for such emotion then I would have probably bought it already from the nearest pharmacy.

I see myself standing in a long, dark, and winding road, with no one beside me. I am alone in this journey. Yes, I have braved the previous walks for me to be able to be in my current position, but I do not know if I still have the capacity to move forward without someone guiding me.

I have friends and family to confide to but I don't think they're pretty much enough to make me move even just an inch from where I am right now. No, I am not losing hope that they would make me do so, but I think this is far from the filial touch that I have.

I do know how to read route maps and compasses but currently, I do not possess any, nor do I have a GPS on-hand. If only I have a guide to where I am supposed to be then everything will be easier.

I am longing for that helping hand to safe me from this misery. I do not want to be stuck in this situation for long. I am not good handling depression and loneliness that's why I have to get out from this road immediately.

I just don't know how.

Hoping It's Just a Dream, Only Just a Dream...

I had an 'apocalyptic dream' again this morning...

My mom and I were currently in the wake of my close cousin at the time of my dream in Bicol. We were the only person inside the small house of my Aunt that time. As creepy as it is, he suddenly started to move inside his coffin, came back to life to warn us that there's an approaching asteroid that will hit the country any moment, that we should evacuate that moment immediately! As for my other relatives, they were outside the place as we were told about this.

I began fixing some things, bringing only the most essential necessity that I could grab: toiletries, some money, nearest clothes that I could get, emergency kits, the likes. Mom was skeptical about it but when she saw it in the news (that time she was using her Tab computer to surf the net) she hurriedly picked us up, left my cousin in his coffin who's back being motionless again, then rode the nearest jeepney that we saw. Of course, I called out my relatives to ride with us.

I told them what happened inside, as I cling close to my very cute niece, my brother's daughter to be excat. Initial reaction was disbelief but when my Mom told everything they were dumbfounded. As we drive along the highway, far from the lowland place that we had, I saw in the news that the asteroid fell somewhere north of us, thou not really a direct hit to our place, but there will be effects. Then the satellite feed showed us that the highway near my Aunt's place were already flooded.

The last thing I could remember on this dream was that we're still moving forward, not stopping along the highway. What we rode was a public vehicle who can still pick up some passengers but upon hearing our story he didn't stop to pick some other and just continued driving.

The end of my dream.

My initial reaction upon waking up to this? silence. I checked my current location to see that I am not really in that dream, to check that I am still in my bed, making love to it.

I am not new in this kind of dreams. In fact, this is the nth time that I had such, but it was a different scenario this time.

What bugging me the most is the dead close cousin of mine. Currently, that close cousin is living somewhat near to my place. Even though we weren't able to see each other recently, I know he's okay, with his family.

I don't know the reason for such dream to come to me. And I really hope and pray, just like in my other apocalyptic dreams, that this is really just a dream, and that, nothing will come to life from this dream.

Iron Man 3 Epic Trailer

Iron Man 3 has started to be shown in the Philippine cinemas. People can't get enough of the Playboy, Philanthropist, Arrogant Billionaire that Tony Stark is.

Now, let me share to you a very epic and great trailer only Asia has for the 3rd installment of the Iron Man series. Credits to its rightful owners. Just found it here.

Enjoy watching!

P.S. I read that it's a Thai Production. If it is, kudos to the whole team for the job well-done. :)